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Old 09-17-14, 09:52 AM   #1
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As i write this, i am in my school (uni) , so many rude sarcastic comments about me, so much ignorance, some people that i know and deeply care about didnt even bother saying hi to me, including my crush ( she is mad at me last 2 days). 3 girls just went honestly and cruely offending me with some sarcastic jokes and all. I just came from uni wc where i cutted, no one even noticed, no one wont notice. Why? Its coz i am unimportant, no one ever cared, no one ever will. All i think about now is just simply going back to wc and ending it once and for all... I can bet no one will notice if that happens.
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Please don't. We would notice if you left :(
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Old 09-17-14, 11:27 AM   #3
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I assure you, I would notice if that happened!

Everyone gets disrespected, even the Queen of England. I know it's hard not to care what people think, but it's not impossible. I think it comes with practice, just reminding yourself of that often.

Do you think you might be giving people too much power and credit? They might be boring, dumb, annoying, why give them so much credit?
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No, please don't do that. You can't give up, you can't give in.. If you end it, you're letting them win.. Don't let them win. You can get through it, I know you can. People are cruel, I agree, but there are also people who care.. People like us, who are here for you and want you to keep on living. I know it's hard to ignore the hateful things people say, I've been there.. Just keep your head held high, and don't let them see that they're hurting you. Don't give them the satisfaction. They want to hurt you. They want to watch you break and fall apart. But don't. Please stay strong.. hang in there, you got this. It's going to be okay, love.

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Old 09-17-14, 01:55 PM   #5
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Thanks for support guys, means a lot to me. I just came back from school, feeling worthless, lone, abandoned, still suicidal. I am literally the only one that was returning home alone after classes. Everyone had someone to go with, talking laughing... ugh, i dont know why i keep being hurt by everyone from them, why am i tossed around like i am worst piece of garbage when i am not needed. When i am needed for anything, they are all lovely, kind and all to me, once my worth expires i am just tossed away.

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Do you think you might be giving people too much power and credit? They might be boring, dumb, annoying, why give them so much credit?
Because i am highly social, my happy place are social environments and yet i am tossed away, always tossed away, offended, being laughed at... I am living in town of 400k citizens, and i know a lot of people, i am just wondering how terrible am i, when in town with 400k people, literally no one likes me. I would say that no one sees me, that no one notices me, but that would be lie, because people that notice me simply offend me or laugh at me, whether its my looks or my personality or my well my anything.


I dont know.... i just feel very... today.... i just simply dont know. Looks like i will be calling hotline again. :(
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Old 09-17-14, 03:08 PM   #6
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What's wrong with calling the hotline? I call them all the time, because like you I can be talkative. That's what they're there for.

Quality over quantity when it comes to friends.

You were just at someone's party, yet you weren't happy. So I'm confused as to what you want.
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That party was basically everyone invited, i believe/am sure that i was invited coz i am helper( helped the particular person multiple times with studying), and just not to be only one not invited, so that particular person wont feel bad about using me as tool, not person. Well i think i hit then nail there, to people i am always just a tool. Once they are done using me i am simply tossed away till i can be used again for their needs. I just want to have at least 1 honest, true friend, someone that will be capable of caring about me, i give love to everyone, but no one even think about giving even smallest chunk of it to me. I know that this probably sounds pathetic to you, but that is just me. :(

P.S. I never said that there is anything wrong with calling hotline.
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nsd just remember we are here for you, and not to use you then toss you away, you are a valuable member of this community^^

I'm not sure if this is right or not, but instead of pouring love to others, give them to yourself first, better yourself and become someone that others need you instead of you needing others. It's probably gonna be difficult and some people might still use you as a tool but eventually I hope you will be the GO to person when they know what you can really offer^^
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Old 09-18-14, 04:20 AM   #9
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Thanks for replies everyone.


I dont know, i want to stop needing others, but its just so hard, not to have anyone (in real life) on whom i could rely on. I am completely alone. It just simply hurts me that i feel incapable of i dunno...everything. :(
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You were at a party the other day and it didn't make you happier. I think happiness is an inside job, maybe...
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