Hey. Have been on here a few times reading threads, and just wanted to send out a little bit of encouragement to those of you struggling right now. Hang in there. Survive. Tell the part of your brain that tries to kill you to go fuck itself. Get better out of spite. Do some amazing shit. And when you just can't, when it's too hard, when you have no fight left in you anymore, do it anyway... Just hang in there. It does get better (and worse, and better again) even though when I am in it it feels like I have always felt like this and always will, historical evidence has proven this to not be true.
I am not doing so hot right now. I am having trouble functioning, winter is kicking my ass. I am feeling numb, in slow motion, paralyzed, unable to move or do any of the stuff that daily living Says i am supposed to be doing. I have to fight the urge not to break up with my life. But I know spring will come, my mood state will level out, and sanity will return. even if it doesn't last. I am trying to take my own advice. A lot of people write about how terrible the world and people can be, but I am choosing to try to focus on the good. I am trying... Anyway, I only know what it feels like inside my own messy head, but if it helps know that you are not alone. Hang in there everybody. 👯