I have come to admit that I have a drinking problem.
I drink by myself pretty much every evening, only beer.
I do it to numb the pain of my broken heart, to stop myself from thinking, or to give myself a good cry, and I notice I also do it just to kill the time until I can fall asleep.
I can't fall asleep anymore without either beer or sleeping pill.
Nobody knows. I live alone, so it's easy to hide.
I know I need to stop.