The only thing that works for me these days is drinking every now and then, it is a quick fix for all of my symptoms, and I feel 100 percent normal when I drink, so much do that I want to be tipsy 24/7. Depression, anxiety, intrusive, obsessive, racing thoughts, mood swings, all disappear when I drink. It is the only way I know that works for me. It makes me feel grounded my putting so much things into a halt and being in the moment, being able to use my mind as I'd like. I am self medicating when I drink. It is not right, it is nor healthy, and it won't solve anything in the long run, but it is the only thing that works for me at the moment.