Sorry if this is long. Ive always felt like it was no big deal, but when I was little an older girl used to touch me in ways that I felt uncomfortable about. I know its nothing compared to rape, but I never really opened up to anyone about it, and I can't stop feeling guilty. My families religion says its wrong, and ever since I could remember I dreaded going to church or people bringing up topics about how gays are wrong, because the person who touched me when I was 5 was also female. My mom is a teacher for troubled kids, but she can be cruel sometimes.
When I finally told her one day, during one of our fights in which I broke down, she said it wasnt the older girls fault, and that it wasnt bad because she (the girl) was most likely molested/raped etc too. The thing I hate the most is my mom was molested twice in her life. She parades it around and tells everyone about it while I cant help but feel ashamed. I dont know how anyone can just tell random strangers about something disturbing as sexual abuse. A couple days after telling my mom the truth she told my grandmother (a religious fanatic) at a public soccer game about it. She was not quiet about it. My sister sitting 3 seats down heard the whole thing. Worse was she said the older girls name. Worse than that, the older girl's very close cousin was sitting right next to them along with her parents. And I see this girl practically every day.