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Old 01-18-21, 08:07 AM   #1
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So much has happened since my last post.

The bad man came home again. Mommy trusts the bad man she doesn't know he hurts me.
I don't want them to know and call me fag.

I can not.
No more.
I feel so dirty.

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Old 01-18-21, 08:29 AM   #2
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I've been praying that God will take the bad man away or that I will become a million little butterflies and fly very very free. I hope God hears me soon.
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Old 01-19-21, 01:17 PM   #3
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I am so sorry to hear that you are going through this.

Due to my Aspergers, I don't usually give out a lot of advice.

The only thing I can think of is to tell someone. The only factor is your safety. It doesn't sound like you are in a safe situation. I might have more advice with more information though.



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Old 01-21-21, 06:59 AM   #4
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Hi, thanks for your advice. I am afraid to tell someone because they will humiliate me. But maybe I can tell you a thing or two.

The bad man is called Daniel, Mom wants to marry Daniel but I just want her to leave him and stop hurting me. Mom usually goes out to work, she is very hard-working, and she leaves me with Daniel, she trusts him a lot, but Daniel becomes the bad man as soon as Mommy leaves, he does things to me that hurt and make me feel very bad. Thanks for your advice and for listening!
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Dear rottenpizza, you must talk to your mother. She loves you and must be responsible for you. It is possible that she might not believe you at first, but the truth is on your side and if you make it clear that you love her and want her to be happy (and how can she ever be happy later in her life if she knows she married a man who hurt her child?) then she will, in time, listen.

If you are afraid, then talk to someone else first. A teacher? An adult friend? If you are uncomfortable or think others will humiliate you, maybe you try it online first.

There are resources: RAINN.org (live chat option)
https://www.nsvrc.org/
https://forachildllc.com/contact-us/
https://www.thehotline.org/get-help/

Good luck and may God hold His hand over you.
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Old 01-26-21, 10:23 AM   #6
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Hello, thank you very much for answering.

And yes, I really want my mom to be happy, that's why I can't tell her because she is happy with Daniel, for two years I haven't seen her so happy until now.

Yes, maybe I will try oline! I'm already doing it here. But they seem more professional pages and I am afraid that they will realize what the bad man does, they can punish him according to what I have been investigating and I do not want them to do it because it will be my fault and all my friends will find out that I'm disgusting.
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Old 01-29-21, 01:29 PM   #7
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Hey Good news!

Mommy fought the bad man about bank accounts or something. He was rude to her.
But the good part is that he left.

I know they will reconcile, I know mom. But at least he will go away for a while.

I'll be safe for a while.

How could he just leave like this?

I don't want to see the bad man again but I don't want him to just go away like that.
It sounds very bad but I would like him to suffer somehow. Suffer like me I had never wanted someone to suffer before.

I feel like a bad person.

P.D: After an explanation from someone, I discovered that there are different types of abuse, and discovered that mine is called "sexual abuse"

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Old 01-30-21, 08:53 PM   #8
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Hey rottenpizza,
Have you told your mum about what the man does to you? Have you tried ringing the police? Itís important for you to remain safe, and if someone is sexually abusing you itís of the utmost importance that you seek help.

Remember that you are not a bad person. If somebody is mistreating you so badly then itís their fault, you did not do anything to deserve it. You are a good person, you have just had to go through something that is totally unfair.

You said that you ďwould like him to suffer somehowĒ. It is normal to feel resentment towards those who hurt you, but you must not do anything to physically harm them. That being said, if you tell someone about it, whether that be your mother, the police, or a councillor, then there is nothing wrong with that. In fact, and I canít stress this enough, but you really should talk to somebody about it.

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Old 02-02-21, 12:42 AM   #9
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Thanks, I'm thinking of telling mom
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Old 02-02-21, 02:26 PM   #10
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I think that would be a good idea

Hope you’re doing well
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