It's been over a year since I have self-harmed, but due to stress and family troubles, I have been resorting to self-harm again. My husband is barely there for me anymore, and that made me feel lonely.

I also indulged in unhealthy eating today. I ate 3 sugar cookies plus any leftover cookie dough that is scattered about. I almost chose to eat a large chocolate bunny that I got last Easter.

Everything is hopeless. I am sick of others telling me it will be okay, when it really isn't. I feel that in light of recent events in my life, Christmas is ruined. But then again, I pretty much ruin any holiday.

I only ask this question in ignorance of not knowing.
Why do you self harm and what and how do you benefit from it? Hoping you are not using dangerous self harm methods.
Is there something else you could substitute for this

Because every minor thing is my fault. I got my husband pulled over, and his driving privileges will probably be revoked.

I understand what is causing you to self harm but is there something less harmfull to your body that you can do, i don't know what but something, anything almost is better

I can't think of anything else besides overeating. The feeling is getting worse because my husband doesn't qualify for Medicaid, and the only other option for medical insurance is Obamacare, which means money out of our pockets. I am feeling a huge urge to self-harm, but can't because I know return trips to mental institution are worse.

do you have a place to go or some way to physically exert your anger and frustrations out on something inert like a punching bag, or running or something, i know with me if i can burn my frustrations out on an inanimate object i feel a bit better at least for a little while.

i understand it has to be hard when you are in a position like you are and it feels like you have no options, hang in there something is bound to break your way

I think there is a part of you that recognizes this is harmful behavior that will not help your mental or physical wellbeing. I've been there, I've self-harmed, I understand the feeling of release, but it's only temporary, and meanwhile your problems remain unsolved.

Please do all you can to fight the urge to self-harm. Talk to someone, distract yourself, remove dangerous items from the house. It might be that you need professional help to guide you through, and to learn how to manage and cope with the feelings. I know, if you are in America, the health insurance situation sucks. I wish it was easier and more affordable.

Right now, it sounds like life is too much for you to deal with, and you shouldn't have to deal with it alone. Take a deep breath. Try to come up with a plan of action. We can help, even if it's just to listen.

I think you should stop blaming yourself for the driving situation when your husband already got multiple points for speeding. HE did that, not you. It was him that put himself in that situation. Try to keep that clear in your mind.

If things are not going well with your husband and you right now, can you go to marriage counselling?