Originally Posted by WomanOfSelfHatred
I can't think of anything else besides overeating. The feeling is getting worse because my husband doesn't qualify for Medicaid, and the only other option for medical insurance is Obamacare, which means money out of our pockets. I am feeling a huge urge to self-harm, but can't because I know return trips to mental institution are worse.
I think there is a part of you that recognizes this is harmful behavior that will not help your mental or physical wellbeing. I've been there, I've self-harmed, I understand the feeling of release, but it's only temporary, and meanwhile your problems remain unsolved.
Please do all you can to fight the urge to self-harm. Talk to someone, distract yourself, remove dangerous items from the house. It might be that you need professional help to guide you through, and to learn how to manage and cope with the feelings. I know, if you are in America, the health insurance situation sucks. I wish it was easier and more affordable.
Right now, it sounds like life is too much for you to deal with, and you shouldn't have to deal with it alone. Take a deep breath. Try to come up with a plan of action. We can help, even if it's just to listen.
I think you should stop blaming yourself for the driving situation when your husband already got multiple points for speeding. HE did that, not you. It was him that put himself in that situation. Try to keep that clear in your mind.
If things are not going well with your husband and you right now, can you go to marriage counselling?