my mom is ruining my relationship with my dad....and its driving me crazy she is a jealous fucking bitch and yesterday she found one of my shirts with blood on it and she forced my sleeve up and literally showed my dad and now he wont talk to me so now i dont have anybody i am so fucking mad at everything and i cannot stop self harming

I'm so sorry you are going through this, DesertPanther. Your parents should be supporting you and getting you help, not ignoring you.

Please, please, please turn to someone else. Is there any other adult you can go to? A guidance counselor or a relative? We are all here for you on this website, but that is no substitute for someone in real life. I'm sending all my good vibes and love to you. Please update us on what you choose to do. You are beautiful, your body is beautiful, and you will learn to treat yourself with love, but you can't do it alone.