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Old 06-22-13, 01:45 AM   #1
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Since no one has posted in this forum yet, I figure that I'll kick things off... If I can help anyone through sharing my experiences, then I'll be happy.

I started self harming when I was 15 or 16. At first I did it for attention as a cry for help since no one knew what I was going through...but after doing it the first couple of times, I started to hide it (but I always hid it from my parents). But when people i went to school with (I'm refraining from calling them friends) found out... I was judged and misunderstood.

When I was about 20 I told my mum. She was distraught. I tried to explain to her when I got into such hysterics from sadness, guilt and pain that this was the only thing that could calm me down. She always tried to understand and understood why I did it I guess...but she never understood exactly how I could do that to myself, or the full extent to why I did it and why I thought it helped me. I did it for two reasons:
1. To calm me down; and
2. To punish myself.

I've went on quite a few 'dry spells' when I would not harm myself. And now, 10 years on, I haven't harmed myself about about a year. I still get the urges but I found other things (healthier things) to help alleviate my sadness and calm me down. I draw. Drawing is the only other thing that can calm me down when I am extremely anxious and depressed. And the funny thing is too, that I can only draw good when I am in such moods. I draw depressing pictures which tries to represent how I am feeling.

I often look at my scars (most have faded now though) as a reminder of what I have been through, and how I survived through such tough times.

So I guess what I'm saying here is that if you self-harm, you are not alone. I understand how you feel and why you feel the need to do it. But know that there is another way. And if you can't figure out what that is yet, you will. It will take such strength and will power to overcome, but you can do it. If I can, you can. Don't be afraid to reach out for help. And don't go too far, because your life is precious. Even if you can't see that right now.

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Old 06-22-13, 02:34 AM   #2
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Good text of yours rememberthegirl.

I was depressed for 4 years, I wanted to die and etc, but never self-harmed myself. But I can understand why one would do this. Great you don't do it anymore.
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Old 06-23-13, 01:02 AM   #3
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Great post you really speak the truth .It's good to hear it
you show hope and can help others turn this around.
I am happy you don't feel the need to do it anymore.
My best friend did this to herself and I couldn't understand
why. It's really great you shared this.
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Old 06-23-13, 03:47 AM   #4
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Hey RememberTheGirl =),

That was lovely =). I used to self-harm a lot, but have refrained from doing so now. It was mainly to punish myself for the things that happened (or didn't happen) in my life.

Hope your okay! =).

All the best,

Mitch.

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