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Old 07-14-18, 07:45 AM   #1
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I have 19 months without self harm. I had a complete nervous breakdown and ended up hospitalized in December 2016 and decided that after 14 years of self harm i was going to stop then and there. I used the two weeks i was in to stop and i been doing the DBT program since. I graduated a month ago and am starting the graduate DBT program now. Well I have had a few things happen the past week including a friend really hurting me adn now my mind is flirting with the idea of self harming again and my mind comes up with plans that i have not done and my therapist knows all this, and its like im setting myself up to go back to it and i dont want to but im scared i will and i dont know how to explain it! I am looking for ideas how to NOT go back to it, i do not want to relapse with it!
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hey Butterfly, good on you for putting in the hard work doing the DBT program. Going 19 months is really good! Did you have a plan to follow for when things get difficult after you left the program? what has worked in the past to help you now harm again. good on you for posting here and seeking support, I'm guessing you learned some strategies to 'surf the urge'? hope you are doing better today
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I been using the DBT skills and yes they work for awhile, and i still have access to the DBT phone line that only therapists running the program have 24/7 when he office is closed but i been feeling like maybe self harming would help again after its been so long..... at the same time i long to have it behind me and not have to cover myself when its hot etc of marks and i long ti say i have 2 years self-harm free. Bu then my mind starts to fantasize about how good itw ould be to do it again.
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remember that the thoughts are just thoughts, not facts, and it is just a fantasy that you'll feel better.
You've done so well to get this far, perhaps you could use the phone line if the urge gets strong?

What sort of things do you like to do for distraction or do you have any hobbies that you could do? :)
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I love anything arts and crafts and scrapbooking but lately nothing appeals to me, i also like to cook and bake. I did end up using the phone line but still the thoughts are coming and going on and off
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