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Old 07-16-14, 11:40 AM   #1
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I struggled and struggled all these months, and it was in some way successful I just scratched but now all these months are thrown to nothing cause i did it again and i dont even feel better its just something i had to do, in all that emotion i couldnt even think what im doing and i feel im just spinning in the same place, i was harm free for couple of months and now i just dont know what im doing
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Sorry, but i didnt quite understand what happened, would you mind explaining?


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Old 07-17-14, 12:43 PM   #3
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I started again with alcohol abuse and self harm, which is now making me super angry cause im back on the same road to nowhere
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Alcohol,i can understand, its what i also do when i am really down,i dont encourage it but i understand. Self-harm i did 2 times in my entire life. Nothing good comes from it, there are much more healthier ways of channeling frustration and pain and angryness that we feel, like working out, running, hitting a plush doll, hitting a pillow, simply yelling out, crying... Much better way to cope with it. Dont do anything that will harm you when there are ways to channel bad feelings out without harming yourself . (:
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Old 07-26-14, 10:40 PM   #5
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No you are wrong I am so sorry to here What has happened but you haven't thrown any thing away 7 month clean you should be proud it is not easy even two years in I relapsed and I thought to my self I've failed and that made me want to do it again but instead I thought I've had a hard time recently and used a copeing strategy that I had unfortunately used before and that made me think from a more than regular occurrence to once in ages what you should be thinking is you haven't failed instead you have used a strategy to cope with a difficult event or strong emotions and you haven't failed if you think you have failed then you feel as though all you hard work has gone but it has not gone at all you hopefully don't want dsh/dsi and in these seven months you have stopped you have gained copeing strategies distraction methods and got a bit better you have not lost any thing instead only gained and you have gained my respect and probably every one else from here and who also know you in the world that knows that you suffer put what you know to use and Try again as long as you try you cannot fail because if you harm yourself again you pick yourself up and try again
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im just so f***ing depressed
i just cant seem to get out this slump
if i could just get over this hump
but i need something to pull me out this dump
i took my bruises, took my lumps
fell down and i got right back up
but i need that spark to get psyched back up
and in order for me to pick the mic back up
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Old 07-27-14, 08:32 AM   #6
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put what you know to use and Try again as long as you try you cannot fail because if you harm yourself again you pick yourself up and try again
Thank you very much for these words, it means a lot Im little disapointed in myself cause i couldnt end with that sh** forever you know just never do it again and its specialy hard now in summer with all the questions from people but no help, to cope with that. But we'll be alright and i agree we should be proud of long periods resisting those devils and being in a right place
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Yeah your right it is expecially hard in the summer because we have to still wear winter cloths (long sleaves no shorts) to avoid unwanted attention and in doing so we attract unwanted questions witch bring up triggering memories but try to block them out witch is way easier said than done and hold your head up high and remember what you've achieved. the same questions still get asked for me to and I still struggle to handle them to. Not even half my family know and just the other day my nan said take of your jacket and I just replied no I've got my reasons and left it at that. Plus the heat causeing a state of constant dehydration probably don't help either of us but we'll get through the summer and get to colder times the hardest one is the first but just try and if at first you don't succeed try and try again
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im just so f***ing depressed
i just cant seem to get out this slump
if i could just get over this hump
but i need something to pull me out this dump
i took my bruises, took my lumps
fell down and i got right back up
but i need that spark to get psyched back up
and in order for me to pick the mic back up
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Old 08-01-14, 11:03 AM   #8
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Thank God i already had tattoos on wrists when i started so mostly i have it on hard to see places,but on a pool and sea side its fuc.. It was hard for me last couple of days on the swimpool theres no way hiding anything there and its heavy and hard when all the time you have to think aabout it. People around me only ask how did you do that,where is it from, 1person recently imediately figured it out and to be honest i dont know what is worse, people who are too blind to see what kind of scars and scratches are those or ones who know it from the first look..
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Say, cat attacked you. Coz once, i was attacked by cat and scars are pretty similar for non-medical people.
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Old 08-01-14, 02:31 PM   #10
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Well when there are scars that are obviously deep and wide and there is obvious scar tissue its hard to say cat did it, only stupid will believe it, but for scratches hell yeah i have my wild cat for that. mine excuse is always i fell into a bush,roses or something cause i fall all the time :)
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