Had a relapse after 2 years. Things were going so well didnt self harm for 2 years just a few days ago it completely got to me and i just did it. Became over upset and over emotional for 2 years i survived did nothing and i messed up few days ago. What a complete failure i am just a week ago i wrote in the success stories forum saying how amazing my life has been going and now its just the smallest things upset me. Yes its left many marks and no doubt it will leave scars.

Dont worry, thats just a minor stumble on a nice road to recovery

Thank you for replying. If its a minor stumble then why do i keep thinking about it over and over again. It shouldnt be on my mind.

I don't know if you remember me, but I hope you got to pursue your academic career in psychology. I'm now taking it myself and enjoying it

Just think of it this way. For 2 years you have been clean from self-harming and in total ~700+ days only on one day you slipped. Keep fighting

Self harm is like any addiction. You will most likely always struggle with this. And don't let that bring you down, you will struggle but it'll get easier. 2 years is a very long time and VERY much something to be extremely proud of. One little time isn't okay but it's not something to beat yourself up over either. It'll get easier again, it's just new and you got that fix again so you crave it but don't give in.

and you can still say you were 2 years clean of harming, because you ARE. It's just 2 years with one minor slip up. And in another year it'll be 3 years with a minor slip up. Your record of time without it doesn't go away because of giving in once.

It happened again i did it yesterday same arm. Yeah it hurts that i harmed again but i feel that because ive fone it olredy yesterday wasnt a big deal but my partner was overly upset and shouted. Hes not used to me self harming.

I‘m sorry you‘re having rough time. From personal experience, people who never went through depression think that self-harm is sick and most of them sign you off as lunatic imediatly. But they‘re wrong, aren‘t they? You know the truth. You know you‘re not insane. Like I always say, it happens. Don‘t let it bring you down. You did great. And you will keep doing great. Like Maat said, it‘s just a minor slip up.

sorry to hear about the relapse. but like nsdimitrije said, you made it that far.

i learned that i had to just expect slip-ups. that way it's not quite as disappointing and i don't hate myself as much when it does happen. because i know it will. and then i just have to keep trying.

try not to be so hard on yourself. you've done so well, and you can do it again.

Thank you for your words of encouragement. Its being on this forum that makes you realise its people like yourselves that care about me.