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Old 10-29-17, 02:54 PM   #1
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I'm not sure if this is the right forum to write in, but it seemed appropriate I guess.
And I apologize in advance if my English is terrible, it's not my native language.

I feel pretty lonely and I don't really have someone to rely on right now.. I mean, I have my bf and he is super supportive and caring, but we live in different countries so it gets kinda difficult.

I don't think I can say I have friends.. like, sure I have some school "friends", but that's all they are, I can't talk to them about stuff that bothers me or things like that. And I guess I just lose everyone close to me. Maybe they get tired of me or I fuck up somehow. All I know is that they always slowly leave me. It's probably my fault anyways, I kind of distance myself from them. But I don't blame them, I guess I understand why..

So I guess I can vent here.. at least it will help I guess, even if no one sees this.

I wish I could stay happy.. but I always doubt myself and think that there's always someone better than me (there always is), so I'll never be enough. No matter what I do, say, think.. Even if other people try to prove me wrong.. I know what the truth is..

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Old 10-30-17, 07:16 AM   #2
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No one is better than anyone else. No better, no worse. We're all equals. Besides, what makes someone "better?" By what standard?

As for not having friends, maybe you can call a hotline or get a therapist to talk to.
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i agree with sensualgirl here...there should be more equality in racial,sexual and social aspects of life...then the world should be such a better place to live in really..feeling lonely or depressed can be a heavy weight to carry on the mind and daily life..tbh it's never been so much my problem because although i am a loner my days are happy and content,from time to time i get my moods,pensive moments..probably OCD related...nobody is or can be perfect..my mother tongue is Dutch but since i travelled a lot i practise English rather well..doubt can be an obstacle..just like sensual says==try a helpline,therapy is one step further..see first what a helpline suggests for you..your nick..
.oh...Medusa==that's Greek mythology..ohoh..do not give in to loneliness...open up and tell us how you feel=
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Old 10-30-17, 03:56 PM   #4
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No one is better than anyone else. No better, no worse. We're all equals. Besides, what makes someone "better?" By what standard?

As for not having friends, maybe you can call a hotline or get a therapist to talk to.
Yeah, I guess you're right, but I always compare to others in pretty much every way, which is unhealthy..

I went to a psychologist a while ago, but it didn't really work, I didn't feel comfortable opening up to her.

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i agree with sensualgirl here...there should be more equality in racial,sexual and social aspects of life...then the world should be such a better place to live in really..feeling lonely or depressed can be a heavy weight to carry on the mind and daily life..tbh it's never been so much my problem because although i am a loner my days are happy and content,from time to time i get my moods,pensive moments..probably OCD related...nobody is or can be perfect..my mother tongue is Dutch but since i travelled a lot i practise English rather well..doubt can be an obstacle..just like sensual says==try a helpline,therapy is one step further..see first what a helpline suggests for you..your nick..
.oh...Medusa==that's Greek mythology..ohoh..do not give in to loneliness...open up and tell us how you feel=
=we are all listening and nobody will judge you.

[FONT="Lucida Sans Unicode"]Yes, maybe it wouldn't be so hard that way..
Oh that's good, it's always great to stay positive. I don't always feel this way either, though.
It's just from time to time, for like a few days or so. But it destroys me every time it does happen.

Your English seems to be pretty good though :) I'm Portuguese, but I started learning English since I was a kid, and I practice it every day because of my boyfriend (different countries, so yeah).

Like I said to SensualGirl, I've tried going to a psychologist but it didn't work..

Yeah, it is c: I like her story. Kinda sad, but it's still beautiful I think.

And thank you. It's kinda helpful to talk here, share things with people that understand us. It's nice.[/FONT
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You can only compare yourself to the realistic standards and expectstions you set for yourself, no one else is comparabe as we all differ from each other in many ways, as far as friends go it's not the quantity of friends that matter it's the quality of friends, I'll take one good one over 10 average any day, don't give up befriending people just be a little reserved until you see who they really are, and as far as everything being your fault that's just something you tell yourself to make an excuse for them, be true to yourself
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You can only compare yourself to the realistic standards and expectstions you set for yourself, no one else is comparabe as we all differ from each other in many ways, as far as friends go it's not the quantity of friends that matter it's the quality of friends, I'll take one good one over 10 average any day, don't give up befriending people just be a little reserved until you see who they really are, and as far as everything being your fault that's just something you tell yourself to make an excuse for them, be true to yourself

Yes, I understand that, and I'll try to do it. But I think my standards are too high sometimes.

I agree with you, I'd rather have one good friend than several shitty friends.

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