Got into a little confrontation today with this meathead and his friend over a parking spot and I feel like shit. I tried to be assertive and stand up for myself, but my voice shook and I had to hide the fact that I was trembling. Looked the fucker in his eyes, but I was honestly terrified. It's shameful that I still haven't figured out how to handle bullies after all these years.
I just feel so inadequate compared to the other men in my family. I hear stories of how feared my grandfather was in his home country and desperately wish I could be like that. My uncles and brother too. They're all fearless and virtually unbreakable. They naturally assume power over others, dominate social interactions, and are almost always in control of the situation. No one messes with them.
It's not even a physical thing - they aren't significantly bigger or stronger than most men. Yet somehow they always have the upper hand. And despite the fact that they're secretly disliked by lots of people, no one dares to speak out against them. Matter of fact, the same people rally behind them. I wish I knew their secret.
I'm the only person in my family who has ever talked back to my brother. Not even my parents can control him. My dad acts like a bully at home but turns into a mouse whenever they argue. How do I get that kind of power?