A great inspirational song which has saved me from suicide a number of times.
It's called 'Change' from the band 'Blind Melon.
Please do check it out here.
Blind Melon Change - YouTube
I was thinking of myself.
I was thinking of a friend who is suicidal.
I was thinking of the band that made this song.
I felt a few people understand me.
I was so grateful to you, for posting this..
This past year has been really tough for me, but somehow this song has always been able to get me through everything.
Today has been especially hard and then I came across your post and it honestly made heart jump. I understand exactly how this songs helps you. Not many people understand how it helps, but those who do have been the same places we have.
A few months ago I got a tattoo of the lyrics so it would always be with me.
Stay strong, and thank you for sharing this great song.
I don't know if I am allowed to right here why this song means so much to me and why I thank you so much for it. I will do it anyways and the administrators or you will chose.
All my life I have been told by my mom I destroyed her life and I have a bad charachter like my dad. My dad has a bad character it is true but I wasn't brought up by him, I haven't even seen him since I was 5. And everybody has always been saying I am a particularly good person.
This critisism all my life amonst other constant bulling, apparently led to depression, and I left to go to London. There in my hard effort to be independent from my mom I stayed with a boyfriend that was smoking loads of canabis and gambling, some times big.
I was always the briliant student and managed to get a masters and could get a posh job, but I desided to stick to my true self and find my own answears. So I ended up presurising myself to find answears, and with the canabis I started doing whilst bored at home with my boyfriend and no one else to support me, I developed panick attacks.
I stayed a year away from work and for 5 years now I suffer. The last 2,5 years I returned to Greece because it was unbearable and he had been creating money problems to me as well. I had the fear I will get crazy and spend the rest of my life in an asylum. So cant get out a lot, work a lot or make new friends. Also unemploed most of the time (due to situation in Greece).
My mom is still telling me, even in my hardest of times, taht I destroed her life and taht I have the bad character of my dad. She sayed it today to my friend actually, when my friend called her and and asked her to help me.
I am afraid to go to London, my only chance to get a stable job thesed ays, teh way the unemployment has gone crazy here. I am afraid I might go back to my boyfirend and do drugs and end up more paranoid, unable to work, with him making me homeless with his gambling like we have been in teh past (for a month or so we had to borrow money from his friends to find a place to stay), and tehn doing harder drugs and be homeless for ever.
I still dont regret for not having a posh job instead and just be a bragging ashole who thinks is better because they have more money, and therefore can take advantage of the weaker of this world. (By the way depression doesnt mean you are a weak person it means that you have been strong for way too long. Was posted these days in facebook, and many people liked it)
So after I have explained all that, I would like to tell you that me having gone through all these, I often, in times when I find nothing to tell me I did the right thing, when I have no friends, no partner, no children, no job, despite my HUUge efforts, I often tell myself I must be very stupid and the "normal" people will say that "the very intelligent girl turned up to be the silliest of us all. She wasnt that smart anyways"!
So this song gives me the reason to understand what I did and why I did it..
Sorry for the long drama story. I just wanted to let you know. thought you might find it good to know.perhaps even hart warming like I found your song your story and your unswear to me.
So I thank you. :hug:
please also allow me to say, dont give up.
The answear is in believing in yourself. You are a child of nature, so [email protected]@k everything else, you owe to like yourself. Also you owe that to the nature that made you.
Also in believing that everyone is equal. I have done therapy,and read about it. and though about it A LOT, and searched everywhere for unswears.
Self esteem is the reason for depression.
Our parents bully us all our lives and make us believe with words that are sayed and that have been emplyed that we are not worthy of one thing or the other. So we believe we are not worthy of happiness. I say [email protected]@k them who bullied you. They were trying to survive. They are just humans like you and me. You owe to your self to survive. You survive, don't allow them to survive having eaten your soul in their attempt to do so. Dont allow that for the sake of you being their messia. You have been fooled! they are not looking for a messia, they are looking for a victim. The messia is a person who is huppy within them selves not a jesus that secrifies him self over others.
Sorry all these might not say much to you.
please do tell me your story if you feel like.
I am so sorry. i was so emotional and in such a deep fight with my depression, I had not realised it is two deferent people writing about this song. My apologies to both of you. The above two posts go for both of you.
Hope you both feel better soon, and everyone here and everyone in the world suffering from depression, and see how many streets are in frond of everyone, every human being despite anything, for happiness and/or for life without depression and so much pain it causes.
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