Constant rituals,rules,counting,order,hand washing
You know the feeling when you have to do something or a bad thing happens? Well, all my life revolves around the rituals to stop bad things happening. From the second I get out of bed until I go to sleep. The rituals almost always involve counting. I have to touch/say/move/shake/blow on something a certain amount of times. The worst thing, though, is that there are ’bad’ words, colors, numbers, pictures, basically anything that can trigger a need for a ’ritual’. I would hear a word in a conversation/on tv/movie my mind considers negative or harmful to me or others, then I have to cancel it out by saying it again or blow in that direction or to say the opposite (positive) thing. Or I read such a word in a ebook/pdf/website and I have to click on it/slide over it a certain number of times.
If the repeats of any ritual have multiple digits I have to add them and the sum has to be a right number, so… a lot of counting.
When I’m outside I can step only on certain parts of the pavement if I don’t/can’t I have go back. This applies too when I put things in their ’right’ place; if I don’t feel it’s in the right direction/next to the right thing I will go back and rearrange it for the nth time…
I can’t touch/eat/watch/wear things of a certain color or if I do I feel anxious&tense/have to do something to even the action out.
I wash hands hundreds of times a day. If I touch the ’wrong’ object/furniture/person and I have to run and wash my hands/or other body parts which came in contact with it.
When I try to defy these rules my mind makes up (often as it goes) I might last for a while and then the doubt and bad feelings just overwhelm me so much that I go back and do the ritual. You can imagine it complicates my life a bit…
I’m going to the doctor for the first time because of depression and I don’t know whether to tell her or not about my crazy habits…
Do you think the aforementioned constitute as OCD?
p.s. when I post this I can't use emoticons cuz of their shape and color...
This sounds like OCD to me. Tell your doctor about your habits and he'll help
I'm the same with the counting and 'bad' words or numbers (but not the blowing on things) and I have OCD so I'd say yes but you might also be suffering with an additional illness as well as OCD.
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