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Nickchick 09-27-19 11:57 PM

I don't even know why I'm here
 
or why I'm posting this because nothing helps. It doesn't even matter because no one cares or even if they do care most don't understand. The rare few who do don't know how to help.


I don't know why I go to therapy it doesn't help. I don't know why I go to work because it's not enough money and I never wanted it..no one else would hire me. The places that show an interest in are places I don't belong in so to no surprise interviewing with those places I tank even more horribly than the others (this is excluding my current job which hasn't got me anywhere). I don't know why I try at anything really because the world is so backwards. I didn't even have to try to get this job I just walked in yet I try so hard to get the ones that I should be at I get nowhere. I belong in a place I don't belong in? I don't know why I say anything..I'm a reserved introverted loner anyways but when someone questions me I feel like I have to explain myself. Why though why do I have to say anything? Why can't I just lie when someone asks me how are you? That's what they wanted anyway.

ayesha23 09-28-19 07:58 AM

where do you see yourself?

you say in your post " you try so hard", try so hard to do what?. what are your ambitions. what do you want from life.

Nickchick 09-30-19 06:47 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by ayesha23 (Post 2932466)

you say in your post " you try so hard", try so hard to do what?. what are your ambitions. what do you want from life.




I try so hard to get a job that is better suited for me. I've been aspiring to be a music video designer..if I can at least get started in graphic design. I had applied to an out of state job in design in a state I'm trying to move to and they didn't pick me either. I try to find other places I would fit since my degree means nothing. I look for kennel tech, tech support and just recently tried data entry.
I just want to not be sick and depressed all the time because of where I live so I'm trying to move to San Diego as it is a temperate climate. I've always wanted to live in CA anyway since I was 12.


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