Blue October: Hate me Lyrics
 

I find this song really intense....I definetly know I can relate......

Mother: Hi Justin! This is your mother. It is 2:33 on Monday afternoon. I was just calling to see how you were doing. You sounded really uptight last night, it made me a little nervous, it sounded like you were nervous too. I just want to make sure you are really okay and wanted to see if you were checking in on your medication too. You know I love ya! Take care hunny i know you're under alot of pressure. See ya! Bye bye...

(Verse 1)
I have to block out thoughts of you, so I don't lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I'm alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you, Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face
And will you never try to reach me, it is I that wanted space

(Chorus)
Hate me today.
Hate me tomorrow.
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you.
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow.
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you.

(Verse 2)
I'm sober now for 3 whole months, it's one accomplishment that you helped me with.
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won't touch again.
In my sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicide or hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I'll drive so fucking far away that I'll never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

(Chorus)
Hate me today.
Hate me tomorrow.
Hate me for all the things i didn't do for you.
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow.
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you.

(Verse 3)
And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I have made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling "Make it go away!"
Just make her smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered "How can you do this to me?"

(Chorus)
Hate me today.
Hate me tomorrow.
Hate me for all the things i didn't do for you.
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow.
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you.

Mother: HEY JUSTIN, HEY JUSTIN, HEY JUSTIN, HEY JUSTIN...

yah for some reason when i hear this song i think of my friends...how i put them through so much with my depression and cutting..at times i just wish they'd hate me and abandon me...because i feel i dont deserve anything..i also think of my mom when i hear this song(of course) its kinda the same thing everything that i put her though..i dont deserve to have her as a mother she has stuck by me through everything...and i feel bad cause i tell her ill stop cutting but i havent...im breaking our promise but i have to cut i try not to but sometimes i just cant help it after i press that blade into my skin i just cry...please forgive me

i love this song...

I heard the song a while ago and it really scared me because that's how i feel pretty much. I hardly ever listen to the radio and that was pretty much the last song i heard. Then a friend of mine today said she heard a song on the radio and she really liked and she described the song so i went to thier myspace and that was the song. So i told her yeah i heard it before and it just sounds like me and she said yeah it actually does. It was a bummer to hear that she thinks the same thing but i am trying to get better.
So yeah thats my story of the day.
see ya
Heather

is your friend a good support to you?

i love this song.... i barely ever get to hear it though but when i do, i already no all of the words to the song. this is one of my favorite songs