As much as I hate the idea of getting the surgery done, I will have to get it done. I have a big fibroid that needs to be removed as soon as possible. I can't sleep. I had been thinking about it. There are money issues, I can't take leave from work and post surgery recovery will take 1 month at least. I am feeling alone and financially depressed.
If I delay the surgery, it will create more issues for me. If I get it done right now, who will take care of me, where will we get the money from and what will happen if I take leave of 1 month. It will be unpaid leave.
My mind is kind of messed up today. I had been crying and having severe mood swings.