I just found out I may have a disease on my penis... and the sad thing is, I've never even had sex. So many people have sex without getting an STD and I have one? I knew I was cursed.
It's not an STD though, scientists don't know the cause of it. But I've read that it can lead to penis cancer, or I may have to get part of my penis amputated. I don't know for sure if it's diseased though, maybe just at the early stages.
It would be daunting to see a doctor. Walking down the hall, seeing posters about STD prevention and condoms and smiling people who have sex and girlfriends and are loved every moment of their lives. Then pulling down my pants for a urologist, confessing that I'm a virgin. And then life afterwards, seeing sex mentioned everywhere with my penis cut off. OK it'll probably not be that bad, I'm not sure it really is the disease, but I mean, fuck it. If I meant to commit suicide anyway, what's the point of going to the doctor? I also have a patch of skin on my stomach that's slowly growing. Idk if it's skin cancer or only a normal discoloured piece of skin, but if's cancer should I not let it consume my body? After all most people think I AM a cancer to society. That I deserve to commit suicide. So if I have it, I could literally call myself a cancer lol. In some ways I wish I have it. I'm almost happy at the thought. In some ways selfishly, because I can make "excuses" for myself.
Anyway I'm just going to let my penis develop by itself. If it's going to make me a virgin for life, I may as well let it be. I'm already meant to be a virgin for life in just about every other way imaginable.