Feeling alittle scared today. Trying to be positive but IDK. A couple of days ago I went for my Annual exam which included a pap smear. Something came back on the pap smear. Now I'm scared. The doctor told me Benign Endrometrial, is what I remember but I now think it was Benign Endrometrial Cells. The doctor told me that alot of women over 40
get this and she's going to make an appointment with a gynecologist.
Fine and dandy. I left the office feeling pretty good because the word "Benign".
I then had an appointment with my Biofeedback lady and did my treatment yesterday, (she's not a doctor) I mentioned this to her also, hoping she will treat me for this along with my other ailments. She was blunt and said it was cancer.
I'm feeling alot of pain under my belly button area and have a bunch of ultrasounds done down there yesterday. Now I'm scared.
I tried looking up information on the internet but it's all so Medical and over my head. It's not clear to me.
My impression is that it's not cancer, as of yet! But maybe I'll be monitored for awhile but I'm also in physical pain too, feeling like I'm cramping down there in between my periods for months now. I thought it was menopause.
Just want to come here today and 'get my worries out'. Last night I was crying. My belief is with cancer if they catch it early enough you can beat it. But I'm scared now. I just want to know what I'm dealing with. I had a pap smear done about 9 months ago and everything came back clear so IDK.
I don't think my Doctor wants me to panic so she tried to be non chalent. But considering I'm in such physical pain, I'm worried. Just want to know the truth.
Just have this feeling that damn I want to do "my bucket list" alll of a sudden. I would be so-o pissed if I drop dead tomorrow, just feel I haven't enjoyed life at all. I'm always saving it for later. IDK.
I'm thinking of re-evaluating what's important to me. Maybe start doing one thing on that bucket list.
IDK. thanks for reading and letting me get my worries out.
Today I have a biopsy on my thyroid. But it's benign nodule that they are looking at. I've had it for years and I'm okay with it. That's why when I heard the word benign this time I was okay with it. IDK. Maybe this could be different? IDK.