I have a tendency to hate people. They don't need to do much really for me to start disliking and hating them. Maybe they get along well with someone I'd like to get along with, maybe they are smarter than me, maybe they just seem happy and healthy...
I've gotten to the point where my hate towards other people has trapped me. I feel as if I can't go anywhere or participate in anything anymore since there are people everywhere that I just can't accept.
I'd like to see a therapist or something but seeking help makes me feel as if I am weaker than others and that just puts me more on the defense towards other people. I also feel that seeing a therapist is pretty much saying "Yes I am a child that needs others to help me live a basic life! I can't handle my own life as an adult and I need a crutch because I am so much weaker than everyone else!".
Does anyone relate to this? Why do I feel so much hate and hopelessness?