This is a discussion on My Problem within the Personality Disorders forums, part of the Mental and Physical Health category; I've noticed something about myself and I don't know how worried I should be. In my own life im not ...
I've noticed something about myself and I don't know how worried I should be. In my own life im not great at showing how i feel because all growing up and even now I get told that im wrong for showing it. I've noticed a need to project parts of my feelings and emotions into "Characters". These characters... they have their stories however I control them and they in turn influence me to the point sometimes ive taken on traits ive never really had. Sometimes i gain a lot of confidence because of Michael who is very open but also can be agressive. Julia is very sweet but her father does get angry when he drinks and beats her. Shes timid and rarely speaks to people. These characters are not how I define myself, rather these are the traits I pick up. When they project themselves it is more like I need to make them happy.
Im lost. I dont know if anythings wrong with me. It is not like I change... and im more than one person... Im confused right now :(
I managed to talk it over with someone. And He encouraged my different "characters" to come out. He himself feels like he is an entity and that he is keeping his body alive not his true self. It is funny how these "personas" are so different from me. He met someone really bubbly and happy. It was actually helpful. Maybe there is nothing wrong with me but I have created these characters to cope. Either way Im feeling better about this.
I can relate to what you said quite a bit. I know what it‘s like to feel and act as totally different persons at different times. I guess the only difference is that your “characters“ have name and story behind them. So, where did you get those names and stories from? Just curious, you don‘t have to answer. It‘s good to see that I‘m not the only one thinking that way
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I guess I just got to know them gradually. Somehow I feel they are reflections of me and match some of my past but in a different way. I dont know if its just in my head but my parents seem not to notice when i change.