Firstly its lovely to meet you. My name's Mitch =).
Secondly, (without boring the bits off you) let me tell you a bit about me, then maybe you can take the parts that are necessary and hopefully help yourself =).
I'm bipolar, so the whole depression thing comes naturally to me... Just trust me on one thing, your NOT the only person to feel this way. I know this because I was in a similar situation. Except mine wasn't alcohol abuse, more substance abuse.
I too am on Abilify, 15mg of the stuff, its above the required amount but it keeps me calm (don't worry, my doctor said I should take it =)).
It's hard for others to relate to OUR situation ('our' because your not the only person like this, i assure you).
I'm not going to bore you with the usual shit of 'aww im sorry, it must be horrible', because people don't know until they have been in that situation truly how horrible it is.
When you I hit rock bottom, I think to myself "surely tomorrow has to be better, right?". And if it isn't, i say that about the next day, and so on.
To put you in the picture I also have Psychosis, which is why i'm on Abilify.
Look, please feel free to post ANY questions on this thread and I will try my hardest to answer them/ help you.
All the best,