Apparently I have Borderline Personality Disorder.
It feels weird to have such a diagnosis - partly because I wasn't expecting a diagnosis at all. I just thought that everyone more or less feels the way I feel and they're just better at dealing with it. It also feels weird because it doesnt feel like me, from what I've read. I'm not bad at relationships, I'm not flighty and non-committal, I'm not irresponsible, I'm not manipulative. I feel a little threatened by the diagnosis honestly. Like my feelings are not legitimate. I don't know.
How do you all deal with getting a diagnosis? It feels with this one that I'm not just ill, it's my whole "personality" that is "wrong"... But I don't know any other way to live. I like my feelings.. like the fact that I have any in the first place and that I can count on them, more or less. I feel very.. confused right now. I feel like ... if maybe more people felt like I did, we wouldn't be hurting each other so much.