That's good that it has a name. That makes it treatable, understandable, and easier to deal with, so I say congrats on that. Stay strong.
You don't have to lie, especially not on TTL. Personally, this is the one place in the world that I can truly express how I feel without having to feel guilty or ashamed. You're safe here. There's no reason to lie over the internet, anyway, and it feels so much better to tell the truth.