I've recently been diagnosed with BPD, as in a few hours ago
. In that time it seems to have changed nothing and everything.
I have had depression for 10 years and recently adult onset epilepsy. I was seeing my psychiatrist again because my neurologist is trying to work out if the seizures are related to epilepsy or not. So off I went to my psychiatrist who, for the record, is wonderful and always goes above and beyond to make sure she has covered every aspect. After grilling me about every minute aspect of my life she said that not only do I have depression but I have(/am?) BDP.
Now the rational side of me says that nothing has changed between going in to her office and coming out. But I have always struggled with the stigma of depression, which people are becoming more enlightened about, but BDP feels like a whole other deal, and as well as that it feels like I have even less control over my mood and actions now.
I just wanted to get this out because I don't really know how to begin to deal with this. Like I said I know nothing has changed, and if anything it has really explained a lot about my moods, actions and how I react to things, but I don't know, now I'm just rambling.