Originally Posted by KateUK
I'd be interested to know what the numerous things you were suffering from were and if you worked through them. I;m a bit cynical when it comes to treatment for mental health but am willing to try a different type of therapy. I am going to go back to my doctor to see if I can be referred. I feel like a nuisance but I will do.
It has got so bad that I'm researching suicide methods and have been for the last six months because I don't want to live that way for the rest of my life.
I've just sacked a miserable abrupt, accusing, irritable friend and that has made me feel better. And I've reconnected with an old friend again who makes me feel good when we chat on the phone. I think feeling connected and wanted/useful/respected goes a long way in helping with depression. No point being on meds, going to therapy if at the end of the day we feel alone.
I don't know about working through my problems, I would prefer to say I live with them, as the current triggers are ongoing situations in my life (my childhood abuses I no longer worry much about, as I moved far away).
I started to write here about myself, but it's not correct that I do so in your thread, so I have written with more detail in my journal (this post
) for you.
I am very cynical about therapy and psychologists, I'm not built to accept their way of thinking. My psychiatrist is much better, and he said medications for some time and then perhaps psychotherapy.
I feel it's very important to be able to feel comfortable with the person you are talking with, and that's why talking hasn't been good for me until this psychiatrist that I do trust.
I still feel alone, not useful or respected, which yes I do think are needed for battling depression, but that's natural, it's self esteem.
You've made a great step in taking a person that is negative around you and replacing with a positive in your life. That is worth far more than any medication (in its own way it's a medication, it's therapy). I've found it's important though not to rely on just the one person though - if that person is not around when you need them, or tires of you, you need more support around you.
And that's why I like it here. To listen and help each other, when some of us don't have help at hand and need the support. It's necessary.
I've a habit of longer posts, which I apologize for - I hope I'm understood in all though, and you can talk about or ask whatever you like.