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Old 06-20-14, 09:53 AM   #1
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Sociopaths are described as intelligent and witty, who want to use people to their own goals. They are desribed as pathological liars, who are incapable of love. They don't feel guilt. Ever.

I used to feel stuff when I was younger, but all of it is pretty much gone by now. I still hope to love one day, but I prefer no to think about it, because the possibility that I never again will scares me/makes me uncomfortable.

I do like attention, and I love to be the "prize" in the crowd, and when my body is not in shape, I hate myself...
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I'm not a psychiatrist so I can't officially diagnose you. But it doesn't sound like you're a sociopath. Correct me if I'm wrong but aren't sociopaths born that way? Also you're looking for love. Sociopaths are incapable of feeling love. I'm guessing they think love is for gullible rubes.
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Some people are born psychopaths, some people are born sociopaths.

Some people lose their ability to feel emotion due to some tragedy or trauma, and they adapt a lifestyle that closely resembles that of a sociopath. If it looks like a sociopath, acts like a sociopath, ans his symptoms are of a sociopath, I think it is safe to assume that we are dealing with a sociopath.

Sociopaths are uncapable of love and empathy. They can fake it in order to fit in, but those are not genuine feelings. If someone somehow lost his ability to feel love, or to have empathy for another being, I think he qualifies as a sociopath. Such a loss is said to be a result of a narcissistic wound, of which I have a lot of. I also am quite unable to feel the love of other people, and when my family members (particularly parents) show love towards me, I feel repulsed. I don't want them to touch me.

Note that I recognize dislays of love, but I can't feel it. When I see a couple kissing on the street, I usually feel heartbroken, because I can't feel what they feel, and I am afraid that I never will.
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Fear of never feeling love, feeling heartbroken, those are emotions you can't fake no matter how hard you try so you can't be a sociopath.
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I agree with Crystal Orb. Wanting to feel love is one sign that does not correspond with being a sociopath, and I think so does worrying whether you're a sociopath. I think someone who is a sociopath would not be worried or care about it.

On Wikipedia, it includes this in the definition - " Lacking empathy and close attachments with others, disdain of close attachments..' You don't fit that definition.
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Exactly. Sociopaths lie about their symptoms or are in denial.
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That sounds great so far. If my condition is not one that can't be helped I think that gives cause for optimism.

I think I realized that the source of all my problems is that I always wanted to be "special", because I never realized that I don't have to be, cause I already was.

I resorted to the fantasies and delusions of grandieur to feel comfortable about myself, but never actually put any work into my life. Well not much anyways. My miseryand bad self esteem stems from my unwilingness to take part in anything that is not comfortable.

I am 22, fat, very intelligent, but very lazy. My life lacks a direction and a purpose, all because I never made an effort to develop my skills. The terrible thing is now that I know what I should do, I really don't want to, because I hate learning. I hate having to read through the very same sentences all over again and again in the vain hopes of storing some of them in my mind... It is all so boring and hard.
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I can relate. I think my promiscuity stems partly from a desire to come across as a nonconformist, unique, different, and special.

Are you saying that you wanted to be considered a sociopath because that would make you feel special?

What do you mean when you say you know what you should do? Why is there a should?
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I can relate. I think my promiscuity stems partly from a desire to come across as a nonconformist, unique, different, and special.

Are you saying that you wanted to be considered a sociopath because that would make you feel special?

What do you mean when you say you know what you should do? Why is there a should?
I express my desire to be unique by being very confrontational. I don't tolerate backhanded comments, insults, implied threats, I refuse to play the "popularity contest" game, while I DO want attention and admiration. I come across as intimidating quite often, which gives me a measure of satisfaction. I love to have an effect on people, and I love flashy displays of "power" (power = passionate and charismatic speeches that shock people)

But maybe I want to be unique to be admired for it and not just for the sake of being unique... Tough dilemma.

I don't want to be a sociopath. I just thought that maybe that is the reason behind the lovelessness of my life. I just want to be me, and I want my ability to "give and receive love" to be intact. For now that is what I want from myself.

I know that if I wanted to be a happier and generally more satisfied and content person, I would have to take my studies seriously. It is pretty much the most important thing in my life right now to build a carreer. But it is hard. It is mentally challanging, and I a really not good at memorizing data (excuse).
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It's not an excuse. Some people just can't memorize things. I forget everything I read.

Maybe you ought to switch to a major that involves larger theories, writing, reading and speaking.
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