I guess, today was an great example of this. I made a huge step, by calling a hotline (something I haven't done in ages). I got a wonderful man on the phone. He was like everything was normal. Didn't judge me, in any way. Made me feel as if I could really get some real help. He told me, I'd likely not be able to speak to him again. As with those hotlines, you get a different person each time. I waited up, and didn't sleep really at all yesterday, while waiting for another call. I did get the call by a lady, she was not so great, to say the least.
I suppose I'm thwarting myself, by allowing this ONE person to discourage me, from getting the help I need (and deserve). Yes, I'm really discouraged, still. And, I want to just throw in the towel. I understand, I'd likely do better by seeking out (directly) an LGBT therapist. This just isn't as easy as it sounds, or, one might think it would be.
This is exactly why I created this thread.
Anyone else have any ideas/comments/advice?