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Old 08-23-14, 04:39 PM   #11
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Today would be a good example. I had a horrible night, I'll admit that. Over family trouble. I got through it somehow. I had a nice exchange with an online friend. We worked other things out. Overall, I'm feeling ok at the moment.

I do something that I knew would bring me down. Shouldn't say. I just can't stop myself at times. Likely for me, I was unable (luckily foe me) to find something to bring me down. Turned off the news, and am watching old re-runs of old shows. I feel the strong urge to turn on f~x news. This will bring me right down. I'm going to try and force myself to not do it.

Anybody else struggle with fighting those urges, to bring yourself down?

In the case of voices in the head, negative thoughts, those are much harder to fight.
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Old 08-23-14, 05:23 PM   #12
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^I know that was a tad messy. Edit timed out. Oh to be me.
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Old 08-23-14, 07:25 PM   #13
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I know its a struggle to fight those urges. But commend yourself for ignoring the news and distracting yourself!

Today I felt the urge to purposefully not eat, but I stopped and said "I can't keep doing this, find another way."

So I got out of bed, did some yoga, and smiled in the mirror. I am going to eat my meal and enjoy it.

You are stronger than those urges, the voices, the darkness. Keep going and reach for the strength within you.
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Thanks. It not always easy, but I'll try.

Glad you made those great steps as well. Gut up and ate, did some yoga, and smiled in the mirror. That terrific :)
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Old 08-27-14, 11:14 PM   #15
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Its not always easy at all to stop this. I received really good advice today from people. I guess for some of us, this is a constant battle. I was doing well up until now. Again, searching for something to bring me down. I found it...

Luckily, nothing all that bad. Although, I'm a bit sour over it. Still bothered that I do this. I'm not satisfied unless, I know what I needn't know. I'm not so sure I should shield myself from things. Just, do I really need to be pounding myself into the ground, over things I have no control over.

Just can't seem to stop myself sometimes.
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Old 08-28-14, 12:07 AM   #16
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Don't be so hard on yourself. Yes, today was difficult, and maybe tomorrow will be difficult. But don't put yourself down. As long as you're not giving up, keep trying.

Rooting for you! :)
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Thank you TearAway.
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Old 09-02-14, 12:47 AM   #18
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I'm not sure what the heck happened today actually. I mean, honestly, nothing was all that different today, than it is usually, anyway. I go to bed, and wake up - normal routine.

I just brought myself down, straight into the dark hole again. Its not fair, but, I've already accepted that I won't ever get what I'm looking for, or in need of (in real life). Not really getting it on the forum(s) either. Just distraction is what gets me through it. My "vacation" was short lived earlier in the day. I was able to push through it this evening, for what reason, I'm still unsure. There are good people Ive meet online. Luckily, I have maintained personal contact with 2 of them off forums. I just was reflecting on what I won't ever have, instead of what I do have. I should be grateful, when I see what others are going through. Though, I don't see why people should accept this way of thinking. People have it much worse; without question. If we all only walked around thinking that way, we would never strive for better. I want it all, it that so wrong??? Why should I set that limit on myself - I'm not at deaths door.

For the time being, I'm going to put online dating on the back burner, as I'm just not ready for everything that goes alone with actually meeting up with a guy, or girl for friendship, for that matter. That was all I was looking for anyway, honestly from the dating sites. It not easy to be a loner, and I would've never though this would be my (current) reality.

I'm unsure people actually truly give a crap about me in real life. Nobody would really notice If I were gone.

Oh to be me.

Off topic: I'll forever think of J~oan R~ivers as one of the best comedians of all time.
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Old 09-02-14, 11:30 PM   #19
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I'm sorry you had a bad day. People do care about you I'm sure, but keep loving yourself and caring for yourself.

You are allowed to feel however you want, despite what everyone in the world is going through.

Do what's best for you and keep fighting!
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Thank you TearAway. Yes, it was bad, and I'm lucky to still be welcomed here. I'm unable to write much more at the moment. Mostly, because, I'm a bit numbed still from it all. Really questioning my own thoughts, and just how dangerous they can be, to my own well-being.

I did see your thread as well, and wished I could offer more advice.

Again, meant a great deal to me, right now. Take good care of yourself.
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