Originally Posted by Lil unique
I'm definitely not a pro at this topic but I would love to hear you out 100%
One soul to another
That sounds wonderful!
Well basically I was in a lot of pain over the past week or so. I was chain smoking, drinking, underperforming at work, calling hotlines, etc.
The voices were controlling and abusive. They called me names for my sexuality. They tricked me into not questioning authority and then said "you believe everything you've been taught." These are some of the mixed signals I received in the past. I think it just boils down to jealousy, which is horrible. If I weren't taken seriously or was seen as mediocre that'd be one thing, but to be seen as threatening is quite another, representing to someone what they ought to be, making others feel insecure and inadequate just by being in their presence. Then they will stop at nothing to ruin your life.
There's also like what Crystal Orb endures: people not feeling "ok" with you unless you're generic, have no individuality, and are exactly the same as everyone else around you, the norm.
So if they call me a freak nasty ho, and I say I don't care, they say "oh you don't care about anything, you don't care about your life anymore." But if I pretend to be a monogamous woman, and one of them attacks me as a prude, most of them say "you shouldn't care what people think!" Then they yell at me to stand in front of a mirror and say "I'm beautiful, I'm confident, etc." I'm getting mighty sick of this women as beautiful thing for some reason. I guess I just don't think it's that important.