Originally Posted by SensualGirl
Thanks Clair. I'm not depressed.
Did you learn anything from hearing voices Albatross? Does it serve a good purpose? Do you see them as a gift?
Do you like being a loner?
You ask some hard questions, SensualGirl
I don't see them as a gift, although the cynicism and distrust they bring have been helpful at times. I used to view them as a burden and tried to stop them but as said, it generally made things worse. Now I just see them as another part of me, like my little finger or my urge to eat bacon. They are there and I generally let them get on with it and ignore them most of the time. Sometimes they try to take over but I know the warning signs and have come up with certain ways to stop them. Doesn't work all the time, but mostly I'm okay
Do I like being a loner? I did for 17 years, but I have a very different lifestyle to yours. ( Not judging. In many ways I admire your outlook on relationships with others ) My 'alone' is very alone i.e. no relationships whatsoever, emotional or physical.
I was quite happy and content to be alone, but then 2 1/2 years ago, despite my best efforts, I unintentionally fell in love with someone. Someone who was a liar and user and very emotionally abusive. I realised what was going on so ended it, but unfortunately it woke feelings in me that I haven't had for 17 years and now I can't seem to get rid of them
It's annoying. I won't go into it more, because I was planning on starting a thread about it once I figure out how to put it into words better.
SensualGirl, please don't take any of the things I write as advice. I've just been explaining things that work for me that help me get through life. If you can take something from it that helps you, then good
If you can't, then no worries. Also bear in mind that I'm quite likely slightly insane, lol. ( By 'normal' peoples standards