I feel morally obligated to help people because they have helped me along the way.

But I fear sabotage.

I feel like people are just jealous of me because I'm a happy free spirit. I feel like they want to ruin my life.

The voices constantly shoot down my ideas, ideas that make happy.

For example, I'm a hedonist and they called me "campy."

They pressure me to be a stoic when I think stoicism is a farce. They pressure me to work hard and "pull myself up by the bootstraps." I ask myself, "when I'm on my deathbed, will I think that I wish I had worked more?'" Besides, I think success is a process that doesn't have to be serious. Do It Well, Make It Fun.

And these are the types of ideas I feel compelled to spread. Of course it seems totally far fetched. This world has so much suffering: war, disease, etc. But we didn't ask to be born and this might work for some people.

It might lead people to talk advantage of me. Crabs in a barrel: if one crab climbs out of the barrel, the other crabs yank him back down to the bottom, so they all share the same fate.

So should I just forget people and look out for myself?

I'm inclined to help, but how I help without being brought down?

I think real friends don't bring you down and criticise you. Helping other people is actually really good for mental health, it gets us out of our heads and puts our own problems in perspective so we feel better when we help others. There are lots of good people out there, far more good than bad. Might be that you need to find other people than the ones who are critical, move on to people who don't bring you down- help people who appreciate it or maybe joing some groups where you'll meet new people.

well said,fed up..i totally agree...i found this online about true friends/fake friends..there is also true love/fake love..i used to help others,but i also got daggered a few times in the back..a search for new friends..a new group...is often a search whether we will fit into that new group,new friendship etc..internet stays internet..everything begins within our own 2 ears..if we do not love ourself...how can we give love/friendship to others?isn't it about self esteem,willpower,
determination?or are we weak and look for answers on the www?

https://www.lifehack.org/articles/co...e-friends.html

Why would you hurt me that way?

to the OP===this answer is not meant personal...if i get a problem with myself or feel weak...
i rely on the internet to find out what's wrong and how i can prevent or help the problem to get solved etc..hurt goes deeper then a simple sentence like this one written here...if you feel it hurts you...then i apologize for writing it....

My best guess, I don't really know, is that you sort of have to force yourself to ignore those who try to stand against you. Or see them as people who merely haven't yet properly understood who you are and why you're awesome. When someone tries to insult you or bring you down, if you fully understand where they're really coming from (a place of ignorance) I would expect it much easier to pivot towards forgiving them instead of letting them bother you, or at least simply moving on from those people unaffected.

late reply but:

I figure I don't have to help people face to face. That will be my downfall. I can help people online.

Some people are just Twitter hacktivists, so why put pressure on myself to be some saint?