Many years ago I had a very serious head injury and spend a month and a half in the hospital. Doctors didn't know then if I would ever be entirely normal again or if I would be like a 3rd grader for the rest of my life. Luckily for me I recovered enough to go on normally and look normal to others. I still have problems that most likely come from the head injury though, even if they are subtle, like depression. The doctors also said that I might have seizures from the accident, though I might or might not, or might get them when I'm 'older'. I just started to get them about 25 years after the accident. So far they are a grand mal seizure once every year or so.
This is so hard! Its like having searched for myself all my life trying to figure out how to feel okay and get through life and actually be the 'normal' person I look like I am, only to find that now I'm less and less able to make myself look normal.
I had a seizure in the parking lot at work almost a year ago, was sent to the hospital with a big injury from hitting my head when I fell, and my job put me off the clock right away for 4 months until I could prove I was good enough to come back. While I was gone nobody from work ever called. When I came back everyone seems to make a wide circle around me and stay away from me like I have a disease. Nobody ever asked me about it or how I am or anything. Its like they see me like I'm some yucky movie creature with my skin is falling off my bones and my hair is falling out.
I'm sad that I have to struggle now more then ever and I don't feel like even I understand how to help myself.
Can anyone relate?