I don't know how many of you are in the states, or if you watch Vh1, which I usually don't, but they have a new show, "OCD Project," where they take people with OCD and try to give them therapy for it.
I wouldn't say, necessarily, that I have OCD, but I have a lot of weird ticks that the people on the show do. Particularly with things like brushing teeth, like I brush my teeth for 10 to 15 minutes every day, and if I don't my whole day I will just feel disgusting. I cannot walk on cracks in the pavement, in my house I must walk on the carpet or rugs, like I just cannot walk on the tiles or hardwood. If I'm on tiles that have alternating colours I have to walk on one colour or the other. I just can't do it. Actually, I have a lot of things with colours, I can't even look at something if the colours aren't in rainbow order. It drives me mad, and then if a colour doesn't match a certain atmosphere I just cannot even stay in that room. I don't really know how to explain that one. I'm uncomfortable around things that aren't in either odd numbers, or preferably divisible by three, I like the number three, and it seems to show up all over the place. Think like the movie 23, except I'm not really looking for the number three, it just shows up.
I have a lot of other ticks, like I can't be in a room without a fan blowing, or at least something that sounds like a fan, if lockers are open I my school I have to close them, all doors in my house are either closed or open.
But everyone has a fear that causes these actions, but I just feel extremely uncomfortable, to the point whereas it can cause me to shut down or have a genuine panic attack.
I don't know, but I think these may be warning signs of OCD... Any thoughts?