My brain's been off on obsessing over things all day and it won't stop, been nearly in tears cause I just want it to stop it and it refuses .......

How can I be sure that everything I say on here won't then be used against me?

Do you have an understanding of the thoughts that you are obsessing over? Do you what thoughts are bothering you? I know it sounds rough. Sometimes, there may not be an exact cause. Whatever it is that is bothering you, probably won't bother you forever. Just know that your life is valuable. You are living for a reason. You deserve to be here. It would most likely help to speak to someone. If you can, try to talk to a suicide hotline. There are phone numbers you can call for help on emotional issues. Try to look them up on Google. Just know that everything will work out at some point in your life. It has to. Your life is not destined to be sad forever. Just know that your life will get better.

Some of the thoughts are to do with my beautiful girl cat (Ebony), there is no way this side of Hell I would do anything to myself at the moment because I know for certain because of her health issues, if anything happened to me Ebony would die as well. If her asthma didn't take her, she'd get euthanised in rescue (she's also timid because of past abuse and finds it hard to trust new people)

Tigger would get rehomed quickly, she's a attractive colour, attractive temperament, etc so I have no fears about Tigger if anything happened to me.

Ebony's my reason for staying alive. It just feels like everyone else wants to shoot down my dreams though and will not even let me try to become anything better.

And if I say anything else, people will round up my posts and throw them all in my face.

Don't give out any details that can identify you to people who might know you.

I know how bad obsessive thoughts can get. My mind never switches off and I can't just be "in the moment." The only thing I can suggest is find a bunch of safe things to do to distract yourself (talking with friends or even here can work). Then do your best to concentrate on that thing or task while doing it.