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Old 09-03-06, 06:30 PM   #1
 
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Its kinda hard to write this. Its just my 2nd post too, but whatever.

I have always kinda done a little research about depression and mental disorders. I stumbled onto OCD on wikipedia and read it and was hit hard by one of the descriptions/symptoms.

* Unwanted sexual thoughts. Two classic examples are fear of being gay or fear of being a pedophile. In both cases, the sufferer will obsess over whether or not they are genuinely aroused by the thoughts.

I am somewhat ashamed, but not completely, when I read this. I have had this problem my whole life. It has kept me from having normal friendships and in general made life somewhat stressful at times. Confusing too.

When I read this, and it wasn't that long ago, can I say I felt relief? I never was able to put my finger on what the fuck was going on in my head ( I dont have other OCD symptoms, I don't think ), although I knew I was not gay or a pedophile. I sure as fuck didn't like the thoughts regardless. It wasn't/isn't fun.

I don't know if this helps anybody. In some fucking wierd way it helped me because I said, "AHA!, that's what the fuck is going on!"

I haven't mentioned this to my psychologist (my drug dealer, really). Maybe if I start therapy one day I'll talk about it.

Again, I saw the forum and it popped into my head (no pun intended there). Maybe someone else is feeling stuff like this and it is causing great angst. Don't worry. It's all in your head. :)

P.S.: I don't hate gay people. I DO of course hate/dissaprove of pedophilia.
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Old 09-03-06, 10:09 PM   #2
 
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This is VERY interesting! Thank you for sharing it. I have a friend with OCD and he's never mentioned this either. I'll tell him about it.

I'm glad you are searching and researching. Let me know what your therapist says.

Be good to yourself on the journey.

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Old 09-03-06, 11:31 PM   #3
 
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also thanks for posting this. i tend to have obsessive thoughts about certain things but i've always wondered if it was a form of ocd.

whenever you hear about ocd its always someone who washes their hands 50 times a day, touches everything, or checks the locks on their homes incessantly.



it's also kinda coincidental that you posted this because i've been working on a story based around a man that secretly has pedophillic fanatasies but has supressed them but then later in life he acts on them.
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Old 09-04-06, 07:39 AM   #4
 
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I always have the thoughts followed by thoughts that I am "fucking with myself". That I hate myself so much I would hurt someone else. I was glAd to find that article. It made me see that it's not that I hate myself at all, it's simply something's not right up in the attic.
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Old 09-04-06, 12:56 PM   #5
 
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It made me see that it's not that I hate myself at all, it's simply something's not right up in the attic.
Now that's funny...not right up in the attic. Thanks for the laugh, although the underlying meaning is certainly not funny.
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