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Old 10-01-11, 12:43 PM   #1
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This one seems to be a big OCD issue for me. Sadly, in the past, it's taken all I've had, wanted, and caused serious depression issues. I think about it at least once a day. I just am NOT always able to "react" to that thought. I dream(s) of hitting the big one and making the "injustices" in my life right. I have gone over the top at times, scratching up change, just to buy a lotto ticket, scratch off, or a few bucks for the casino. I know, half of my issue with this, is being by myself. No friends, family, or postive outlets to "reach" for, when I want to gamble. I keep seeing all the people, some worse than myself, hit it! It's a big win, nothing small either! I've seen different people, in all kinds of different situtatuions, knock it off. I wonder why not me? I keep that thought, plus a few different ones, in the back of my mind. There's really NO place to go to and seek help for it. I've checked. They have a Gamblers Anoumous, but that's a phone help line, NOT in person help line! I feel ashamed of having this demon. I have beat it and the want to do it, more than a handful of times! I always keep thinking I'll win, I'm due, I've "paid" into it enough;my turn to win!

I'm wondering, if anybody else has had it? Have you truly beatin it? Have you recieved help? Where did you find help? Finally. Did the help you recieve, help you?

IF this is posting in the wrong forum, I apologize. Please move it to the appropriate one then.
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((((((aries))))))) i am sorry u are struggling with this :(
are u OCD about anything else, do u take any meds or have therapy for it?
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Blue Girl - No, no other OCD issues; just this sadly. No medication, no therapy. I learned, years ago, that therapy didn't help me. The lady knew I had this issue/problem, yet my sessions never seemed to be centered around it. Which, disappointed me greatly; that's why I went in the first place. I have noticed, that when I don't have money to spend, it's NOT as common as a thought; just when I get money, I do. Maybe, it's not OCD it's just a bad; poor habit?
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i don't know, could be habit. do u spend a lot, or is it often?
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i don't know, could be habit. do u spend a lot, or is it often?
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I think it's more of a bad habit. I do spend too much. IF I actually win, I don't leave. The time before last, I took my daughter with me. I figured she'd be my "voice of reason." I won $600.00 and ended up, droping $200.00 before I left. She was very upset/mad with me. She told me, when I won, take the money and lets go. I was the one that "felt" I'd hit again, due to just getting that hit. Needless to say, 2 days later, I left it all in the casino.

I honestly don't have this issue, but once ever few months. I honestly can go for months, with NO gambling. I guess it's the fact I sit around for months. Not truly going any where or doing anything. I also, "feel" I "deserve a big win" for once in my life. That's the 'evil' that drives it. Being under so much stress right now and trying to unbury myself; when in actually, I just destroy myself. It's like I realize it, but unable to control that 'urge' when I get it. It's fustrating....
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Aries - I totally understand what you mean. It's like with all the losing we're doing in our lives we just want to win for once. The last time I went to the casino I ended up in the positives with a win. I was happy and then I thought I'd push my luck, and started losing. Once I start losing, I start to feel hopeless and then bet it all, as a final ditch attempt to win. Obviously I lost quite a bit, but my boyfriend, won quite a lot of money. He ended up with four times the amount he started with and I was not happy. I threw a tantrum, because the way I see it, why should the person who gets life handed to him on a silver platter have a win, but me, the person who has to struggle through life to find even the smallest of wins, lose every single time. It's not his fault though. He tried explaining that to me, even saying he'd share his winnings with me. But it's more the fact that my pride was hurt. That I can't control myself when it comes to gambling.

I honestly think I should stay away from gambling, but I can't seem to do it. I always think, people win. It's easy to win, I need the money so why not do it an easy way. And then when you lose it all, it's like I spent hours working tirelessly for that money, only to lose it in what, half an hour? I know it's a bad habit, and I know that I should stay away, just like you aries, but I can't seem to do it. I feel like I need a win, so I need to go back to get that win. I wish I could tell you that I overcame these demons, and that I have an awesome strategy, but I don't. I can however offer some advice.

Keep your support network up. As you said, your daughter stands as your voice of reason. Sometimes it pays to have someone around telling you to stop. My boyfriend does it for me, and without him I would probably lose all my hard earned cash on gambling. So I would recommend taking her with you or someone else that will tell you when to stop. Just ask people who you really love, and who love and care for you. They will only be happy to help you out.

If you must go to the casino, only carry a small amount in cash and leave your bank card at home. That way, you're only playing with what you can afford to lose. Once you're at the casino and you win, put away what you started with. So for example, if you started with $50, put that $50 away and play with your winnings only. Then even if you do lose your winnings, you still break even, which isn't a total loss.

I don't know if my advice is what you're after, but it's what I can offer. I really hope it helps and I hope you can overcome this!
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i hope u overcome aries, that would be a "win" (((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))

i've never been a gambler, so i don't think i can offer much help. it could just be mindset - i believe more people lose than win, so i guess i'm not tempted by it. one instance when being negative-minded has helped me
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princessofdarkness - Thank you, honestly for you words of support. I believe, when I DO gamble, that it's "I'm due for a win attitude." Then of course, I lose my butt and walk out empty. That time again, is coming. I'm hoping, that with my daughter getting me a new puppy (since my Roo passed) that IT WILL keep me out of that place! I can only hope!

Blue Girl - Thank you also, for your kind words of support as well! I would like to be more like that. NOT have any kind of urge to go down their and spend what I really know, I can't afford to. It's hard, because I always believe, if you don't play, you don't win. It's a broken record with the needle stuck in that rut with hopes that I can make it out with their monies!
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Well, it was another struggle, that sadly I failed. I should have walked away, when I was actually up for a change. Yet again, that demon got the better of me. I know that some of my problem's no friends, no family, with no support. I've considered help, yet don't want it. I can go for months with no issue and then I just fall, flat on my face? I don't always want to gamble, it's only once in a great while. It's been months (if I recall correctly) since I last did. I get so mad, fustrated, and feel like a failure; to myself. I've always been a strong person and have endured so much, yet I can't seem to over come this? I smoke, that's the other bad habit I have, but it only hurts me; nobody else. I'm a very considerate smoker and realise others' may not like smoke around them. Why am I not able to beat this demon? Why, when I was actually up, I couldn't walk away. I set my limit and then kept "pushing" it down; as monies went down. I'm not only upset, with myself, but now, it's smacking me in the face, and getting depressed about it. I just don't understand why I don't do it for months on end, then fall off the wagon? I have such pride in myself for being strong and able to over come a ton of obsticles in my life. This one, I just keep getting my foot caught up in the hurdel; falling. I've worked through this a ton of ways, yet can't seem to force myself, to just keep my butt at home! I know, if I had friends that I could visit or call, it would make it easier for me, to seek help. Even a family member would help, yet I have none. I don't feel that I honestly need help, since it's not a "monthly activity" for me. I know some of it, is just being around people and talking. I dispise the fact that I truly have no real friends, hence, no real support from them. I always help them, even if I don't truly want to. If I knew somebody with this problem, I would be calling them and seeing if they just want to come over and watch a movie, talk, or just hang out. That's just me though. I also get so lonely cause I'm always by myself. My daughter has her own life to live, so I don't involve her with my problems. She also "adds" to my own stress with her nonsense. I know, when it's all said and done. I can pass blame anybody/anyone for it. In reality, it's all on me and so is the blame. Why do I have to have this particular demon in my life? I've had too much happen to throw it all away on something so unrealistic and a dream that will never come true or will happen. I feel so low right now and I have now, just financially screwed myself; till next month. Why can't it just be easy for me, to beat this? I've endured through so much, in my life, and this issue/disease is just making it harder for me to keep picking up my own distructive pieces.
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princessofdarkness & Blue Girl ((((((((Thank you both)))))))))) ( I apologise for not saying it sooner)
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