I've come to the conclusion, after some research i may have a related issue.
Here's a little background. At a young age i used to have sadistic/sexual thoughts.(never acted upon) At the same time i grew up in a very religious Church. Sometime in my early teens i developed an overwhelming sense of guilt over these thoughts, and it followed me to my early adulthood(i'm 20 now.)
The sense of guilt dissipated for sometime when i started Cognitive Therapy. But after a recent church related interview, these feelings returned.(Say Jan 2011?) and have followed me throughout the year, I think this all may be a mild form of SCRUPULOSITY, as the feelings don't fade after repentance, etc.
Anyone who has suffered from this, please reach out and give me some advice on how i can go about overcoming this(Books, Therapy)
or anyone who's had a related issue