I want a woman who beleives in me. Who is proud of me. Who can go up to everyone and anyone and say "This is my boyfriend or husband". And "I love him so much." Who is not ashamed to hold my hand. Who is just there for me to hug and to hold. Who desires me. I want to be loved deeply truly even when everthing falls apart.
At the same time a woman can't satisfy this desire in me....
I need something worth fighting for. I need something to keep me busy. Something worth living for, somthing worth dying for. A cause to commit my life to. I need to have a reason to live, something to give.
If I don't have a purpose or direction or anything. I feel empty and not like a man.
Its perfect when you find a woman who will partner with you in that same cause. Who will beleive in you and support you anchor though victory and defeat. If two people can't agree on this, how can they walk together?
I think I need to be married to a cause thats worth dying for before I can feel like I am man enough to have a woman.
I don't know if that makes sense, but I'm still searching for that something that's worth fighting for.
A fist from a friend is better than many kisses from an enemy.