I think part of the reason that I have bad self esteem is because I never seem to attract any attention from the opposite sex. Seems trivial but it does hurt a bit, especially as I haven't ever kissed someone.
That is a big thing for me. Alright, I'm almost 16, so it's not that bad, but honestly, why doesn't anyone want to kiss me? I'm not completly hideous! It worries me that I have had no interest from the opposite sex, it makes me feel unlovable. And I know many of you who read this may scoff and tell me I'm still quite young and boys don't matter, etc, etc. But as childish as it is, I just want someone to have a crush on me. So I can be reassured that I am normal, and there is a possibility being liked, maybe even loved by someone.
I'm quite sick of going out and having my friends being flirted with and noticed, and all guys ever do is look at me, but not in a way that they would if they were admiring me. They just stare, without smiling, and it makes me feel self conscious. Are they noticing something on my face, or are they just marvellong at my hideousness? Are they thinking I'm fat? My insecurities just do my head in sometimes.
Anyway, although it may seem like I'm overreacting, just wanted to put this out there. Is it strange that no one has had a crush on me, even though I am friendly and interact with the opposite sex frequently? I mean, I do have friends that are guys, but no crushes.
I know, poor me, it's sooo horrible, right (note the sarcasm, I realise my problem is hardly a problem) . And if you are a male, especially a teenage one, explain the actions of your fellow species! Why do my friends always get talked to and asked out, but not me, even though I act as friendly as them? Why do they just give me strange looks? It confuses ne, if anyone has an insight, feel free to give it.