I was just reading your post and noone has heard from you and we are all concerned. Will you please write and let us know you are o.k. and let us know your feelings so we can help. YOU ARE NOT ALONE! But no one can help you unless you let them, and I promise you things will not always look as bad as they do now. Sometimes you just got to hold on till things get better and they will. If you end your life, there is no coming back. Nothing is worth that, sweetie. Life always gets better. Hold on.
Hugs :D Donna