I am a manger and she is my subordinate. I realized I was attracted to her when she began to touch my arm casually (perhaps by accident) and trying to get my attention through her glances. I don't know if she's really interested or she just wants to get closer to me because I am management, but I want to know what I should do from this point.
She is four years older than I am (we are in our 20s) and we have a lot of things in common that many girly girls would have no interest in. We both love video games and watching the news. She's really quiet and likes to keep to herself and I am more outgoing due to my job nature (retail).
I'm getting a lot of mixed signals from her and I don't know how to decipher it. One time she "accidentally" touched my rear end while walking by but never apologized for it. I found it really funny and thought nothing further of it. She also mentioned to me that her old roommates were lesbians and she did not know about it until after they moved out. It was really awkward the way it was brought up and I had no idea where it was going.
Another time a fellow coworker was joking around with me because I mentioned that my nose was itchy and they said that I was going to kiss a fool. Then they proceeded to check who was in the next room and low and behold she was in there and the other coworker asked if she wanted to kiss me. Of course, in the true retail homophobia climate she shook her head furiously saying no.
There are times that she gives me that look, the look of intrigue and wonder. I want to pursue this but I don't know the appropriate way to go about it. I do not want to risk my job (and going against social norms) but we seem to fit together so well that I'm afraid if I don't jump at this chance, I'll lose an opportunity to find true happiness.
I would really appreciate your advice!
Thanks for reading this long letter of desperation and confusion!