Hi there, i am new to this forum and wanted to introduce myself. I live in South Africa. I have tried to commit suicide so many times i lost count. I really try to work through my abusive past, but the physical scars caused by the abuse keeps me back, i struggle to look at myself as worthy, i feel so alone and worthless. I wish i can just understand why my parents put me through all those years of abuse.
I wish i could move forward and forget what happened, but the flashbacks, nightmares and above all the body memory is making me feel like giving up every day, every minute of every day.
Well, that is me for now.