hello all, i just found out about this forum on a tor browser, was totally unaware this website even existed, but i'm super glad i found it and i sure as heck dont know why i came across it. must be some power greater than myself that brought me here. but hey.. i'm totally supposed to be here. to learn, to help, and mostly to be a friend to anyone who needs one. i have one extreme experience with suicide and one milder experience plus a million more experiences with drugs and alcohol that could have put me where i don't belong yet.
-my first experience: i was 18 and made an attempt. only to be saved by a super great doctor. i lived though, i missed death by a inch or two, give or take. (hence the name openheartsurgery, I've had this)
-my second experience: this was more an attempt not knowing if i would die or not..I attempted, woke up about a day later, ended up in a psychiatric ward.
I'm 32 now, I live a clean and sober life. I can't say it's always easy and I can't say it's always hard. But I attend a fellowship that has saved my life. But yep, I surely have thoughts of wanting to know what the other side is like, if there is one, and just what the heck is my purpose on earth anyways.
So with all this said. I'm here to tell you that I may be a little older than some or most (not sure yet)....but I can probably help you, just like you can probably help me. I think online networking is great. I love the internet.
Feel free to message me.