No one will probably ever read it anyway. I don't have much to say except that I'm at the end stage of depression. I'm "only" 31 but I'm just so very, very tired. My hair is gray, my skin is wrinkled, and on the very few occasions that I go out in public, I'm mistaken for a man who has Grandchildren. I'm just so tired of it.
I've tried everything that I'm "supposed" to try - therapy, pills, psychiatrists, etc. None of it's worked. I have no drive, no motivation to continue my existence. I'll likely be banned from here after 100 or so posts, since that's what usually happens with me and message boards. I don't understand, because I go out of my way to follow the rules exactly. Yet still, I get punished, while others do the same exact thing as I do, but get rewarded with praise.
Oh well, I'll see how long I last here, I guess...
If it seems that I'm "not participating," it's because I have nothing else to say. I've believed for a long time that I'm autistic, as I do not understand other people at all, so if I say something that's rude, I will need to be informed as to exactly what I did wrong. Thanks.