i'm a normal girl. 27. married. i look like i have a happy life.
my best friend recently died... okay not so recently like 2 years ago.
i've always struggled with depression but due to wanting a career in law enforcement i always felt like i couldn't seek real help. i felt like this would lead to me not getting a job.
i did become a sheriff and quit about six months ago. it wasn't really what i thought it would be.
i have an awesome job that i love. i have a good looking life. the only negative part of it really recently is my friend dying.
the first time i remember trying to kill myself i was 7 or 8.
this whole post seems really disorganized. i'm sorry for that. basically i lie. i lie to everyone that knows me and i act happy. i smile. i recently started writing a blog about my best friend dying and my journey through grief. that would be the only hint to anyone that something is wrong.
but basically. i went looking to a forum. to talk to people as the real me. to meet people like the real me.
i'm hopeful that's what this place can be. i've never been on a forum before so we will see how this goes.