Hi. I'm new to this website and I guess this is where I introduce myself.
I'm a woman in my mid thirties in the US, and I must say, I'm struggling really badly.
I feel like I put on a positive fascade to outsiders and family, but deep inside, I'm on the brink of a breakdown.
I don't think my mind can tolerate anymore dissapointment.
My mom is on hospice, I'm in the process of moving, however, apartment hunting has been nothing but easy.
I'm tired of getting my hopes up with every apartment I see only to be rejected.
My current living situation is less than ideal.
I live in a 1 bedroom apartment with my family member, so I sleep in the living room, no privacy whatsoever.
I just feel like I was born broken, and that I should not have been brought into this world because I manage to always mess things up that comes naturally to my peers such as: moving on my own, finding a husband, having children, getting a degree, having a social life, etc.
What's wrong with me?
I feel like I have a good heart, I have alot of self awareness, I love animals, kids, I work in healthcare,,etc, yet, I feel like I'm being punished because they're always seems to be an obstacle or barrier in everything that I attempt to do at a better life.
Guys, I just need a place to vent because I can't take anymore.😔