For better or worse what keeps my going are my new found ambitions and dreams. I used to be the scourge of my friends and circles now I am the envy of them because I am living my life the way i want. Everything isnt perfect everyday and I still struggle but I set out goals, and I am accomplishing them and it feels great. I fought through alot of shit and made it out the victor. I have to keep my ego in check because I have a newfound freshness and glow about me which I have never had in my life. I have a better sense of direction, have better people surrounding me, so on and so forth. I am writing to let people know that it does, can, and will get better. Here is the catch: Self work, every day, without fail. Read articles, listening to empowering music, be around empowering and positive people. These are a few things you can do, but whatever you do make sure it is positive and it will have a positive result in how you approach life. The key is perseverance and consistency. If you are persevering enough and consistent enough you will burn through whatever it is that weighs you down, any evil. It is not an overnight process. Results will vary. But you miss 100% of the shots you do not take. Keep up the good work if you understand where Im coming from , Im proud of you. If you havent started, why not? There is no better time than now. Google inspirational poems or books or movies, whatever. Feed your brain the seeds it requires to grow into a better, more productive, happier person. You will be amazed by what can happen if you can muster the drive required to make a drastic improvement to your life. Please start today and save your life, dont be a suicide statistic. Be a success story and a shining light to others. Any questions?